Scar Tissue

I heard someone refer to the damage from their childhood as having 'scar tissue'. That really resonated with me, and not just because I keloid. I thought of the tough exteriors that we create to protect us from harm. People who pretend to be hard but are a gooey mess inside. Many overweight people overeat …

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Like A Man

I’ve spoken about my issues with control and related to control is anxiety and an inability to relax. As part of my coaching sessions I was asked to read up on the various meditation techniques and to try some of them out the following week. Last Sunday I tried Mindfulness Meditation, which is the practice …

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Monday Blues

Monday's are never great days as we have just had a weekend to relax and then we are snapped back to the realities of life. Monday now holds even more dread as it is also our weigh in day with my keto group. Last week I gained weight. Considering the feasting we did on the …

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The Inner Voice

I have had a great week. Work is still hectic as we ramp up on the design and documentation of multiple new interfaces but I am feeling in control and not over-whelmed. We are starting with our design workshops which last most of the day with the system integrator. On Friday our internet crashed at …

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Yin and Yang

Part of my current self-work involves not only exercise and a low carb diet, but also introspection and trying to focus on what my triggers are as there are connections between our thoughts and our bodies. One of the personal issues I know that I need to work on are my feelings of derision towards …

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Soul Food

The last month has been the longest in years that I have gone without writing. I use writing as a way to process my thoughts and feelings and to put things in perspective, or just as a way to diarise my life. I enjoy it when my old blogs pop up as Facebook memories and …

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Currying Flavour

This week my new project officially kicked off and we spent time getting onboarded by attending workshops or meetings. A new project is always exhausting as your brain is trying to absorb the background while envisioning the future. It is a huge project and I am one of the Data Architects. My responsibilities involve data …

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Self-Care

We had hot and sunny weather all of last weekend and it extended into the week but it started raining midweek and has continued through the weekend so far. When Cape Town is good she is very, very good when she is bad it is windy AF. Load shedding has continued this week and meant …

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Release

The lockdown and isolation of the last year and a half has been so hard on many of us for a variety of reasons. My anxiety resulted in such feelings of doom that I was convinced that this was the end of life as we knew it and that feeling has proven to be true …

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New Normal

We had such a lazy long weekend last week and it was lovely. On Saturday when Norm got home from his meeting we went out for lunch. We went to Dario's as we fancied a burger and there were seats available outside on the patio at our fave table. https://www.instagram.com/p/CUP_u85qP5Y/ We both ordered a burger. …

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