This week has been a communications disaster zone for me! On Monday I received a package which contained a brass bell with a bird on it. It was an item which I had almost bought, in fact I put it into my shopping cart but did not purchase it, so how did it arrive??
There was no info other than the waybill number so I contacted the delivery company and asked them who had sent the parcel. The company replied to tell me that my Wonderbag delivery had gone to the lady who ordered the brass bell and vice versa. Nice for her as my parcel cost me R1100 and the bird bell is less than R200. But it was the fact that I had almost bought it – did the universe want me to have it??
The shippers eventually got it all sorted and Lily’s wonderbag arrived this afternoon in time for me to take it with us.
I waited excitedly for my prize from Chrystal Spirits but it did not arrive and I did not get a response to my email to them. I guess if it is meant for me it will come to me.
Then on Tuesday I ordered some winter boots online and the purchase did not go through, the transaction was stuck in pending. Luckily the shop were able to ship them for me to get before we went away as I wanted to wear them and they arrived this afternoon
Why were things all awry? Was it planetary? Leah Whitehorse said:
“As the tense T-square between Mars, Jupiter and Pluto begins to dissipate, another trio of planets form a conjunction. This week we have Vesta, and Mercury joining Uranus in Taurus. Right now, we have an enormous influx of Taurus energy, not least from Jupiter, newly ingressed into this sign. Now Uranus seeks to bring us a higher understanding, mediated via priestess Vesta through to human consciousness (Mercury). It’s time for us to welcome new ideas, to shift our thinking, to find a calm, still focus so that we can clearly define what we consider valuable and worthy. Although the body resists change, the mind hungers for teachings that can only be found through novel experiences. Vesta herself knows what it is to walk this sacred path, to devote oneself to a life of holy service, to fly in the face of conventional attitudes so that eternal flame can thrive. With Jupiter joining the North Node and a Full Moon in Sagittarius too, this week offers us an abundance of opportunities to stretch our understanding of ourselves and open up our world.“
None of which explains my own personal dramas but I found it interesting. 🤣🤣🤣
Sometimes the most random comments can really make us happy. A woman who came to my house recently told me that everywhere she looked there was some object of beauty or a cluster of lovely objects. I love beautiful things and I can find beauty in most things (that was my social media bio line for years). This comment really made me happy and I think of it often as I feel the same. I can let my eyes land anywhere and find an object of beauty. The other comment was on Sunday evening when as we were falling asleep, Norm told me he is so grateful that I am his best friend. He is also mine and therein lies the longevity of our relationship. We really enjoy just hanging out together.
This week I had messages from my grandmother, reinforcing to me that we are all human, we are all fallible and we must love ourselves regardless. I learned something about my gran which she wanted to point out did not affect my love for her as it is unconditional. Why would I not also love myself unconditionally? I think we have all been conditioned that too much self love is conceit but self-love and conceit are wholly different in my eyes. Self love means surrounding yourself with people and places that bring your joy. Dipping out (# Scandoval and if you do not get that reference there where have you been child!?) of the places which make you feel uncomfortable, or where you have to self-medicate with booze or something else in order to tolerate the situation. Being present, loving ourselves, choosing happiness. That is it. The Secret to a Happy Life.
I keep talking about the recurrence of information showing up over and over which I am meant to absorb? I was sent a website about Sri Lalithananda and I opened to this page where he speaks about ‘Shiva-Shakti’. This is the same subject I wrote about last week, the integration of the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine.
I love this bit: “This is the wisdom of Universal Divine Consciousness that exists as Oneness within all beings and uses internal meditation, focus, attention, acceptance, and awareness. This allows us to experience the nature of reality as Oneness – to recognize our duality as Shiva-Shakti- the Masculine-Feminine Divine as One.
We honor and worship the Divine Feminine as Divine Mother Lalithambika -She represents the dynamic nature of consciousness that manifests as All that is! Lalithambika means ‘She who is playful’– Through her play of reality, we realize Shiva, the everlasting bliss-the Static consciousness- the Highest True nature or the Source of all that is. This is the Spiritual Science of Self-Acceptance, Self-Awareness, Self Transformation and Self Realization. Realizing that You are the manifestation of Shiva-Shakti or the Highest Absolute Truth itself. You can begin to access the immense power within you with ease and grace.”
Again I am being reminded to play! It is a bit scary to experience this power when you ‘lock in’, but when we do it is amazing! I have always talked about the ‘Universal Consciousness’ but not really understanding it as a philosophy, I use that terminology in regards to prayer and the power of group prayer.
Last Saturday I conducted an “Ultimate Woman Ceremony”. It is described in Path of the White Wolf so I will just loosely explain my own journey. You have to buy the book or take the course to get the full details and not my own ADHD riddled interpretation!!
First I had done my usual afternoon stretch and yoga session on the hill.
I felt quite invigorated and decided that since we were home that evening I would do my Ultimate Woman Ceremony. I got out all of my tools, starting with my drum. Of course Pixie had to keep guard over me.
I set out 4 stones to mark each of the directions, some tobacco as an offering, my ‘shaman’ stone, my crystal wand, and of course the words I had spent the last 21 mornings writing.
Finally, I put out a quartz crystal, my medicine bag, some sage and a mother of pearl shell for smudging.
I smudged the whole ceremonial area, I then read out loud the 25 pages of words I had written about what ‘The Ultimate Woman’ means to me. I had written specifically about what a perfect life looks like to me. In my writings I solved the political issues in SA, unemployment, crime, corruption, had new careers and homes and grandkids and all sorts going on for my family. Lily and Josh had a Solar company in Cape Town and had also had a second child. Trev had married a woman and was living in Cape Town with two children. Caitlin and Wes also had 2 children. My Mom was healthy and well. Life was amazing. It was basically a blue sky life plan taking place in my imaged reality in 5 years time. Setting those intentions as if there is no limitation, as well as sending that plea out to the spirits to assist me to achieve it. Of course if the children do not wish these things to happen then they won’t! It is not a unilateral directive to the universe it is a wish, simply that. To me a perfect life is with my grandkids surrounding us nearby, my children happy, settled down and prosperous.
Of course I described my physical self and day to day life, routines and practices.
Then I conducted the rest of the ceremony as per the book.
Afterwards I was exhausted from both the yoga and the singing and drumming and mental energy of the ceremony, but I somehow simultaneously felt energised and invigorated. Sort of like you feel after a day in the sun on holiday.
That evening Massimo’s had chicken parmesan on special, named ‘Simply the Breast’ in honour of the wonderful Tina Turner, my Tennessee homegirl who also finally found her peace well away from our place of origin and in similar religions, hers in Buddhism and mine in Animism and who passed away last week. RIP to you Tina.
Anyway. That night we had a gorgeous chicken parmesan with mash and roast veg which was eaten during load shedding hence no photos. Sorry about that! It was divine and gets 5 Kitten Stars. You have to take my word for it.
On Sunday Norm and I got up early and headed out to the Hout Bay Craft Market. I wanted some Jay Bay boots but they no longer sell them (hence how I ended up ordering them online). I almost bought some others but they did not have my size in black.
We ordered a bacon and egg bun from the jolly looking Aunty at the ‘Ocean Eats’ booth at the back by the stage.
Norm ordered a coffee from another stand then came to join me at a wooden table.
The sandwiches were messy and divine, just what we fancied: a good old corner café butty from the UK.
We had a walk around the market and I bought a grater. All of the girls last week from Vanderbilt loved them and bought loads, so Norm showed them to me. As I am always slicing my hands, I am forbidden to use a conventional grater because I am such a klutz. This is ideal for hard cheeses or cloves of garlic for garlic breads. The fact that it has feathers and is the colours of the Native American Medicine Wheel tells me it was meant to be mine. I adore it!
I bought a metal bird holding a fish in his mouth and put him in the garden near my warthogs.
He is perfection and makes me smile so much when I look at him. He gives me PLEASURE!!
Speaking of which, I watched Love and Death starring the delicately beautiful Elizabeth Olsen as Candy Montgomery, and the rather unbeautiful Jesse Plemons as her lover Allan. Patrick Fugit plays Candy’s husband Pat. It is based on a true story and contains a lot of rather pedestrian sex in the first few eps just FYI. Sex not worth the drama that ensued.
I think Elizabeth does a brilliant job in this role, she is very much an oversexed Stepford Wife seemingly incapable of allowing her proper church lady mask to slip.
I have been feeling very anxious all week and I could not understand why. This morning my daily message from The Pattern made me realise it was the fact that I was going to George.
After we left Los Angeles, we lived in Johannesburg until Lily was born and then we moved to George so I think of it as the place of a lot of my first marriage, my court case and my divorce. A place of both great happiness and great trauma. However this is going to be a weekend of pure happiness and I must not get bogged down in any nonsense from the past. It is a waste of energy.
Tonight we have our shaman group monthly zoom meeting. When I showed those posts from The Pattern, Tass told me that the subject is going to align exactly with what I am feeling so anxious about!
My regulars may notice I posted on a Thursday night. This is because I am heading to George with Caitlin. It is Lily’s baby shower on Saturday and it is Trevor’s birthday on the 6th. I will tell you all about that next week. I am very excited to see my babies and sing to my grandbaby!
If any of you are in George hit me up for a beverage. Love you long time.
Until next time, Kisses from the Kitten xoxoxox
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