Caitlin and Bree and I are flying down to George today for Lily’s ‘Sprinkle’ which is what you call a celebration of your second child. Apparently they can use their siblings left overs and only deserve a tiny head wetting. This is sarcasm before anyone gets offended.

In fact I was recently told that my behaviour was “aspie supremacy adjacent” because I posted that the ‘neurodiverse are the colours in an otherwise beige world’. And before you go off on the term ‘Aspergers’ I know the history of the word and that it is not used any longer, however it is a good way to identify some extremes of behaviours.

After initially losing my temper over the way their words made me feel and thinking ‘how dare she??’ I calmed down and I read about what the term actually means. I realised that was exactly what I was being. I was implying that neurodivergent people are superior to the neurotypical.

We often carry prejudices that we do not even know we have. Sometimes it requires someone calling us out but sometimes we have things revealed by observing others and realising that what they are doing upsets us because we identify with those behaviours and do not like them in ourselves.

This can be an opportunity for healing. There is a lot of planetary shifts happening at the moment and they are all pointing towards healing by releasing those things that we find are no longer serving us.

I attended our women’s group last Saturday.

In our session we did a very long meditation. It was too long for my ADHD brain but I did get a lot of benefit from it. I did not take note of the name of the meditation but I did note that it was using 777 Hz. Research indicates that being exposed to this frequency heightens mental clarity and mood elevation, making it useful for improving both productivity and emotional well-being. Sounds at 777 Hz are linked to better sleep quality by promoting deep relaxation and reducing restlessness. I focused on releasing the things I do not want to hold onto: anger, hate, unhappiness, and trauma. I focused on bringing in the things I want to bring into my life: love, calmness, kindness, passion, good health, family and friendship.

I did feel so much lighter after the session.

When Norm collected me three long tailed Cape Sugarbirds were in the protea tree.

We came home and Norm went to walk the dogs. I was ravenous so I ordered a curry to be delivered from Curry Mafia. This time I chose ‘Butter’d Up’ Chicken.

It was not like most buttered chicken dishes I have had in the past, but it was very tasty and I enjoyed it. I love that they use only tender chicken breast meat and that it is in lovely big chunks and has so much flavour cooked into it.

That evening Norm and I watched the Aileen Wuornos documentary on Netflix. I have always been fascinated with ‘Lee’ and her story. I learned new information in this documentary which made me so furious. In the first trial Lee claimed that she was raped by her first victim, Richard Charles Mallory. In this documentary we learn that State’s Attorney John Tanner withheld evidence which could have backed up her claims. Mallory had previously been convicted of attempted rape in Maryland and had served a 10-year sentence in a psychiatric prison for disturbed offenders. This information was not uncovered by Wuornos’ defense attorneys and therefore was not presented as evidence during her trial for his murder, however the prosecutor, knew this and did not disclose it as evidence.

Aileen’s life is heartbreaking. Conceived by a pedophile father and a child mother, her father went to prison and committed suicide and her mother abandoned the children. Two year old Aileen was found covered in flies by her alcoholic grandparents. She would have stored so much abandonment trauma. After her grandmother died, the grandfather started sexually abusing Aileen and she ran away and turned to prostitution to support herself. Her childhood had shown her that being used by others was her value, that her body was her only currency. She was never shown love until she was an adult and that lover was the one who turned on her and helped the police to get evidence to prosecute her.

I felt very sad after watching this. It showed the human side of Aileen. She was a victim who took out her fury about her many abuses on men, the gender who had abused and damaged her.

The next day I had a long lie in and when I got up we headed out to walk the dogs around the green before it got too terribly hot. It was a really hot day and it quickly became too hot for the dogs.

When we got home, Norm opened up the pool and Finn jumped in to cool off.

I had a long swim. Finn kept bouncing in and getting wet then running around like a fool with Poppy close behind him.

It was such a gorgeous day and I loved getting some exercise.

For dinner I had sushi from K1. I had salmon roses, cucumber roses and prawn roses. It was fresh and delicious and a lovely end to my fabulous weekend.

On Monday I cooked a big pot of chili con carne. I tasted it and it did not have much flavour so I re-seasoned it. Unfortunately I overdid it and it was rather deadly to eat. I added in some fromage frais and cheese to try and calm it down but it was very spicy!

On Wednesday I had Vanessa here to do my monthly pedicure. Poppy had to be involved and sit by me or have me throw her toys for her to fetch. She has to be a part of everything. Finn was out for a walk with Norm so at least we did not have to deal with his nonsense too.

I have been working on clearing some of my past traumas and my mental health has suffered but I am trying hard to look at these traumas directly and let them go. I am no longer repressing these memories.

This morning when I prayed and got to my ‘centre’ my brain said ‘bravery’ and I thought what? and I then heard ‘you are being so brave’. Then when I opened up my elder’s meditation for the day it was astounding how on track it is. I will be spending a lot of the weekend with my ex-husband, not by my choice but so that he can see his daughter and granddaughter who live in Cape Town. I have spoken before about the abuse from that marriage and his denial that it happened. I am struggling with this trauma.

I know that I am surrounded by love and light. I know my spirit guides will support me in whatever I do.

I am publishing early because I will be away this weekend. My next post will be on the 15th and I will update you on my trip.

I wish you all love and a happy weekend. Kisses from the Kitten xoxoxo