Last weekend was such a lovely vibe, starting so fabulously with the Organic Magic Project Event on Friday. Then on Saturday Norm drove me out to Scarborough to say goodbye to Tass my beloved teacher. Norm is always willing to be my transport as he knows how driving makes me so anxious but he is seldom keen on participating in my adventures and I respect that. We arrived a bit late, then Norm took Finn on a walk and I carefully climbed down to Tass’ little cottage. Tass opened the door for me to enter and her home was rammed! I saw multiple people I knew and had barely said hi to them and bye to Tass when we were all asked to gather in a circle and hold hands. I am not good with touching people and as I had literally just walked in I was still fully dressed in a cardigan, boots and scarf and was starting to feel a bit faint from the heat, my blood sugar was also very low as I had not eaten all day. I am unable to stand for long on my knees so I was struggling after a few minutes. I knew the mobile data on my phone was still off and that Norm could be back at the truck with Finn and I would not know. All of these relatively minor niggles were starting to coagulate in me and I was really struggling with standing still, attached to 2 other humans, one of which was a total stranger. I tried to keep my breathing slow and deep and kept one eye on the door for any sign of Norm. Eventually my phone rang as Norm had been messaging me and had gotten no response. I answered and I told him I would come as soon as I could. I waited for a few more people to speak and then I saw a gap and made a dash for the door. I felt so bad that I had so little time with Tass or my other friends and that I was so distracting in the middle of such deep emotional experiences for everyone, especially Tass. I am such an awkward turtle in social gatherings. I also really wanted a last photo of Tass and I together. Oh well, at least I was able to pop in and I hope she understands what was going on in my head and my heart.
I left the cottage and climbed up the wiggly path to the car and Finn was delighted to see me as he always is, regardless of whether our time apart has been 2 minutes or 2 weeks. Norm was less enthusiastic.
We drove back along the gorgeous Boyes Drive as Chapman’s Peak was closed due to the storms and landslides I wrote about last week.
But this is the route I generally take anyway, I do not like the narrow curvy Chapman’s and we only go that way when Norm is driving. When I would go to our classes with Tass I always took Ou Kaapse Weg so it was familiar for me when Norm drove for us. In English Ou Kaapse Weg means Old Cape Road. It is a beautiful view as well.
I was so hungry as it was now close to 5pm and I still had not eaten. We stopped at Massimo’s once we got back into Hout Bay as it is on our way home. We sat outside as we had Finnie and it was a gorgeous warm evening. As it was so early there was no one else there and we ordered an adult beverage to refresh ourselves. Actually Norm encouraged my libation because I was stressed and hypoglycemic and annoying (because that is always a good idea to throw alcohol on that potentially volatile brush fire).
There was a sweet pair of robins hopping into the water feature to have a little wash and I chilled out watching them jump around with complete delight. It was nice to relax with Norm and Finn is always well behaved there as we feed him treats. We had our drinks while we waited for our food, then headed home to give the dogs their meds, eat our take aways and relax.
I am still working on various bits of my studies even though Miss Two Crows has flown the coop. In my studies of the West, Water and Release I am asking the universe and my ancestors to help me to release anything which does not serve me such as fear, righteousness, prejudice, anger or rage and jealousy or judgment. Release was one of the topics that Karen Justine used in the guided movement exercise she did at the Event and I feel all of these separate things merging together and creating a wave to wash the negative emotions away.
I am also doing a daily writing exercise to embody other characteristics and I can feel the benefits of the writing. I love this work for being able to heal yourself and do the background work you need, but often we do not know we need until we start to dig deep and radiate love, joy, gratitude and appreciation. Each human is a celestial transformer of emotional energy. I have included a list which resonated with me from Peggy Black and I invite you to participate with me in removing these self limiting beliefs by negating them and making them into mantras. I have been reading them out loud to myself every day. Try to repeat them at least once a day.
- I release the old programs that limit my thinking.
- I release the old emotions that keep me vibrating in a dense form.
- I release the concepts of what I think is real.
- I step out of my self created, self imposed limitation box.
- I honor my magnificence every moment with every breath.
- I hold and radiate a pure frequency of joy, gratitude and appreciation.
- I stay in the chalice of my heart, offering compassion and forgiveness.
- I practice the frequency of pure love.
You can manifest all of these positive things for yourself! What is it to manifest? It is to reveal, to bring into light, to embody and materialise. It is as simple as it sounds when you are aware and know fully that you are pure spirit, pure consciousness, and pure energy. You just have to live as if it has already happened. Imagine it into existence. Repeat these things to yourself and you shall become the being you were born to be.
The Universe speaks to us constantly, we just have to notice and understand how to interpret those messages. In my morning prayers, standing facing the East with my arms raised I give thanks for ‘all of the winged creatures who come into my garden and bring me happiness’ and on Wednesday morning as I said these words my hand felt like someone was tickling it with a feather. I opened my eyes and looked at my hand and it was covered with tiny little insects flying around my fingers which was really tickly and made me laugh. The Universe has such a sense of humour. They disappeared by the time I turned to the South!
Later that day I went outside for a coffee break after my meetings and a gorgeous Southern Boubou came to have a bit of brekkie at the suet balls.
I always think the names of the birds in South Africa are so silly. The Boubou, the BulBul, Swee Waxbill, Hoopoo, Boobies, Coots, Coucals, and of course the Tits are just a few. This is one of my fave birds, the Cape Bulbul. I have several in the garden both males and females.
Even Mr Squirrel popped in a few times this week. I saw him sitting on the rock wall and then another time I caught him hanging upside down by his tail and feasting on the peanut filled bird feeder.
I also saw a large lizard with a bright green stripe which is a striped skink.
Sunday I had a PJ day but that did not stop Norm from getting stuck into trimming the hedges using his new toy. I observed his efforts while drinking coffee and eating rusks.
He then got dressed to do it properly. He now has a mini chainsaw, mini hedge-trimmer and a clipper all which are attached to these long poles so he can navigate high into the trees and hedges. We wanted to clear the growth so that we can get sun on the pool for summer because it is a freezing cold pool and needs all the help it can get!
He did various other bits and pieces and is slowly working through the whole garden. He cleared this section yesterday.
He also did a coating of weatherproof varnish on my birthday bench and it is now out by the pool.
Meanwhile everything is blooming!
My airplants now have both purple and pink blooms.
And the beautiful Wild Iris plants for screening the pool area from the road are all blooming and look spectacular. I planted these when the wild grass that the original owner had planted died. It has thrived and filled in exactly as I wanted it to.
I had sushi on Monday night since it was so warm and sunny. It was from K1 and was even better than usual, it was really fresh and yum.
Norm had to pop to the shops on Tuesday to get something for the dog’s breakfast and he came home with a fresh toffee muffin and a bouquet of gorgeous pink flowers. He knows my love language! Food and flowers get you major brownie points. Oh and brownies also get you brownie points.
I started back to yoga on Tuesday as I felt the need to move my body. Amanda knew my limitations and I showed her the sore lump behind my knee. She brought a chair for me for the knee based exercises on Tuesday but Thursday I did not use the chair and I did everything I could. I am just doing what feels comfortable and I am happily back in my Tuesday and Thursday evening classes.
Little Millie is rolling over at just under four months old! She turns 4 months old today. I am looking forward to going down in November to see them.
This morning I have drumming rehearsal in Hout Bay. I really look forward to singing and drumming again. Then my friend is collecting me and I am going around to theirs for the afternoon. Hopefully my lumberjack keeps trimming things.
Until next time, Kisses from the Kitten xoxoxoxoxoxo
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