River of Denial

This week I heard a term which really resonated with me. Once again I cannot remember where I heard it, but the theory is that the reason that we cannot see the future impact of the actions or decisions we make today is due to 'dissociation from our future selves'. So we struggle with visualising …

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Bring in the Clowns

Superheroes have a lot to answer for. Even old school knights were often pictured with a cape wafting heroically around them in the wind. We talk about someone 'caping' to mean defending someone indefensible. We have been conditioned to expect a man to come and save us from all of our dilemmas. Even I do …

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Anxiety Blocks the Light

Yesterday was such an eventful day that my post is a wee bit delayed. Usually I write a bit at the end of the day as well so that I do not have to try and remember what I did, but this week I did not do that so I hope I do not mix …

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Twist of Fate

On Monday I had a session with my Neurodiversity Therapist. We talked a lot about how our 'quirks' are interpreted as other things and often not identified as symptoms of neuro-diversity. Afterwards I was thinking about how one of my primary stims is twirling my hair. My hair is very thin in one patch from …

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Bucket List

Friends know that I am frog-o-phobic and we have a horrendous situation going on at the moment. We have a toad somewhere in the house. How do we know? Toad poop. If you know toad poop, then you are never mistaken about the origin of that poop. It has no sphincter marks like normal poop …

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A Little Shift to the Left

You know when you were a kid and you were on holiday and you had that 'summer feeling' where your skin felt salty and tight from chlorine or sea water? Sitting with damp swimsuits on the chair cushions and knowing you will regret it later after you have changed and you get your new clothes …

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The Foot in the Trap

This week in my session with my therapist she told me a little story to help me understand and be able to explain to others if one of my irrational reactions occur. I had told her about an incident when Norm had mistakenly hurt me when we were moving the new TV and when I …

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Integration

Last week I mentioned that I had been off of work with gastro the previous Friday, but when I posted on Saturday I was feeling so much better that I had dinner that night thinking it was a 12 hour bug and I was recovered. Unfortunately, I woke in the middle of the night again …

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Alphabet Li & CreepoCop

In my last post I mentioned attending soul circle, but I did not tell you that several people told me that my energy is completely different than when I first attended a year ago. Apparently I was a ball of nervous energy then, I think someone called me a 'bumblebee' which makes me giggle. Someone …

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The Bigger Picture

I have quite a few visual challenges in that I am very myopic (i.e. 'near-sighted') as well as I have an eye disease which affects my vision, but another challenge is that I am colour blind. My Dad used to call it 'colour ignorant' because we do see colour, we just do not always know …

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