Last week I mentioned that Blue was injured and had to go for x-rays at the vets? Before he left I put my hands on his back and said to Norm I think he has bruised his sacro-iliac area, I think it is something muscular or maybe he has injured a disc?
After Norm got home he told me that the vet thinks Blue has injured his SI joint. Norm was reluctantly impressed, but he does not understand my knowledge and I do not completely trust or understand it myself. You can only classify an event as a coincidence so many times before you recognise kismet or knowledge or whatever this is!
It is ironic that blog I was writing while Blue was at the vet was about me trusting myself. It is almost like I expect some sort of sign that I was doing ‘soul work’, like a bolt of lightning or a big neon light.
But maybe that is my own irrational issue of conditioning from silly television series about witches or healers? Even though I do not consider myself a witch, many people consider any energy manipulation to be sorcery. Maybe it is just there, part of your daily life, in all of your choices, in the very air that you breath, your very essence?
I found this quote by Glennon Doyle Melton and I think that it is perfect: “I understand now that I am not a mess, but a deeply feeling person in a messy world. I explain that now, when someone asks me why I cry so often, I say, “For the same reason I laugh so often — because I am paying attention.”
I was even wondering whether I could be bipolar because I do have such highs and lows and I think the answer is no, my spectrum of feeling is just wider than others and the transition between the different ends of the spectrum is just faster. As my therapist said, there is nothing at all wrong with me, it is just how my brain works. That is my mantra, I am what I am, exactly who I am supposed to be. I guess, trying to normalise my normal.
Back to Blue. On Wednesday I noticed that there was loads of tufts of hair in the back garden. I knew it was too long to be Blue so assumed it was the roaming cat here fighting with Blue. I noticed Blue was moving a bit tenderly and this morning he seemed warm to touch. He was off his food so that is a sure sign he is ill. Norm took him to the vet when they opened this morning and they did bloodwork, gave him an antibiotic, lanced a place on his head and sent him home with some meds. I am so glad we seem to have caught whatever was getting him down.
Last Wednesday was voting day but I did not know since I cannot vote in SA as I am only a resident not a citizen. Norm mentioned it late on Tuesday that I was off so it was like a special treat. I had a lazy morning with Norm bringing me coffee in bed. Then my friend came around for a coffee and hung out for the morning.
I mentioned that I want to write a book, I have always felt drawn to write a book as if it is part of my destiny in some way. I thought of a possible topic. I have mentioned that Norm and I were married in a past life? What if that marriage was one of the actual relatives that Norman has uncovered in my ancestry? I also speak often about how I feel like we are ‘alive’ in multiple dimensions. I thought my book could be that Norm and I can slip between these two lives, sort of like if “Outlander” and “Everything Everywhere All At Once” were spliced into a baby film? I think we should look like we looked in my past life regression ‘memory’ if we cannot find any historical documentation about my ancestors. That is of course assuming we can indeed identify the specific ancestors. I know that I was some sort of Nobility or someone of importance because I remember our home was a huge palace with acres of grounds and several bright green mazes surrounding it. The colour of green made me think of Ireland but I have no specific information on location. I remember my pure black hair was in ringlets and I was wearing a white hand made lace gown. I was only a young girl. My husband was older, maybe in his 30s or 40s, he also had black hair, parted in the middle with curls tamed down by hair oils.
Of course there may be other relationships between Norm and I that I did not dip into in my hypnosis sessions as I was looking for places of trauma or meaning, every life did not show.
What do you think about my book concept? Is it too Outlander-esque in its premise?
I went to have my mammogram and ultrasound done on Monday, Norm drove me there and back. It was done quickly and efficiently and there were no issues to be concerned about. That is it done for another year! Every year I have a mammogram and a pap smear to make sure my primary risk areas are covered.
I’ve been trying to eat ‘clean’ and still and have fruit, yogurt, nuts and coconut every morning. The fruit depends on what we have – I exclude apples, pineapples, and bananas as they are not allowed. I have 5 walnuts every morning as they are brain food and lord knows at my age my noggin can use all the help it can get.
I had never tasted a Cape Gooseberry. For months we have been doing this little goose step, I have ordered Cape Gooseberries and for months they have been marked unavailable when they shop for my items.
Today I learned two things:
1) Persistence pays off.
2) I do not like Cape Gooseberries.
Monday night we had no food in the house other than fruit, so we ordered a Portuguese steak from Casarecchio. I had salad and Norm had chips and a bit of my salad (I am supposed to avoid tomatoes so I chuck those on his plate).
We had groceries delivered on Tuesday so I could cook for the rest of the week. I am trying to tell my lazy self that I am ‘blessed’ to be able to cook what I want to eat to motivate me. I get bored easily though so I try to be imaginative. I had mince so I fried onions and garlic, added the mince and browned it, then added in spinach, some spices, tomato paste, and beef broth and let it simmer. I steamed some gem squash and then filled them with the meat mixture.
I sliced zucchinis and popped them into the air fryer. My mozzarella slices were too thick to melt completely, but it was still nice.
I usually would not cook on a holiday but I had a fridge full of food so on Wednesday evening I threw in a pork fillet, some squash and some sweet potato into a roasting pan and hoped for the best. I drizzled some mustard and honey onto the pork, tossed the sweet potato cubes in olive oil and added those. I cooked them for 15 minutes then tossed the potatoes, turned the pork and then added the pitty-pat squash to the air fryer. I cooked it all another 15 minutes then took the pork out to rest and chucked in the squash that was cooked in the air fryer to keep it warm.
On Thursday I had my manicurist around to do my pedicure, my fave self care treat. We had takeout as it was just too late to cook afterwards.
The weather was like a yo-yo after such a stunner the previous day. It was pouring when I awoke, then it dried up and the sun came out and it got nice and warm. Then it poured rain again. This has been going on for 2 days now.
Today was our monthly Women’s Soul Circle. It was a gorgeous sunny day after a few days of dodgy weather.
We met at a new venue which is just down the road from me! I had not been there it was a large beautiful property.
We are so blessed to live in such a gorgeous place! It was a lovely session as always and the topic was ‘Smashing Blocks to Fulfillment’ which I have to confess I did not really understand. I now realise it meant getting rid of anything which blocks you reaching fulfillment. I was thinking of blocks – literal blocks and did not grasp it. Goof. Anyway. I said that I was very fulfilled until yesterday / today. I was full of anxiety because our usual house sitter is not available for this Christmas holiday and so I am panicking about that. I was also panicking about Blue as well because at that point I was waiting on news.
After I shared about it all and talked my way through it I calmed down. A few people suggested some potential dog sitters so we have some options, I just hate having to trust a new person in my home, but needs must. I need to trust that it will all come right, that the universe will deliver.
After we finished soul circle a couple of us went to Woolworths and got some salad and a roast chicken and went to Tamlyn’s to have lunch. We all really felt just how blessed we are. We have friends, we have food, we have what we need and to me, that is the definition of ‘fulfilled’ – to have all that you need.
I hope that you all have what you need.
Billie Eilish has released a new album and I absolutely love it. I like this one a lot and there is a bit of variety with even a bit of a dancey track. There are a couple of songs I did not like, but sometimes songs take a few rounds to feel them. This track is gentle and lovely.
I hope you all have a lovely weekend and week ahead. Until next time, Kisses from the Kitten xxoxoxoxoxo
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